Timing is Everything

Currently Reading: Rebels on the Backlot by Sharon Waxman
Listening to: Home- Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros

Set life is hard to explain.. It is a world where everything is pretend, staged, and covered with hairspray. Everyone speaks a certain language and if you don't stay focused-- even for a second, you could miss something important. I have finally mastered military time, and am learning about everything from props, to location scouts and production reports. It is hard for me to believe it is already December... the past few months are all blurred together and as we near the last few episodes of Suspect Behavior it still hasn't hit me that this life will end for me soon, and a new adventure awaits. People in this industry are used to bouncing around from show to show, or jumping at exciting new job opportunities. But for me, this crew is all I know, and I have become quite attached to them. I spend close to 70 hours a week with these people, and they are all I have here. I keep reminding myself this is only the beginning and there will be many crews and people to connect with. I am so thankful to have met some pretty wonderful people in the short time I have been here... oh and speaking of wonderful people, there is Alex. I met miss Alexandra Adams on my first day at work.. we both moved here for this job and are all each other has in this crazy world we have thrown ourselves into... We bonded right away, and have become really close over the past few months... She knows the real me and loves me anyways, she has taught me a lot about myself and gives some of the very best advice. We have each others backs on and off set, and we want what is best for one another, always. My best times in LA have been spent on her floor by the fireplace listening to good music and laughing about something funny that happened at work that day. I miss my friends back home, and having her here has made the adjustment to my new life much easier and I will always be grateful that she came into my life when I needed her.

I am living alone for the first time which has also been different. No Kels, no Erin, and no Char... that definitely took some getting used to.. I love my new place- I feel safe and independent, and have started to settle in and feel at home. I am using my GPS less and less and am not as homesick anymore. This is where I belong, and I know I made the right choice coming here. I have realized that at the end of the day, you can only really count on yourself to be happy. I have started trusting myself and my decisions more and more.. it is important to live in the moment... When I spend my time worrying about the past or future, I accomplish nothing and I miss what is happening right in front of me.. There is always going to be something negative to focus on, but at the same time there is a lot of beauty in the world and I try to do my best to appreciate it every day. Some days it is harder than others, but life is too short. Do what makes you happy, and when your not happy anymore, do something about it.

I am looking forward to the holidays, time off, and seeing my friends... there are a couple projects in the works as far as my future is concerned, and I am not too worried about it. I have a feeling it is going to work out great.I am excited to see what happens next...


PEACE&LOVE


All I need to make a comedy is a park, a policeman and a pretty girl. -- Charlie Chaplin

Zen wrapped in Karma dipped in chocolate.

Currently reading: I Am Not Myself These Days

Listening to: Lay Me Down- The Dirty Heads





The last month has been quite a whirlwind to say the least... Life in Hollywood moves fast, very fast. I love it though. Yes, I am saying it, I LOVE LA. This city has more to offer me than I could have imagined and in just a few short weeks here, my life has become something I even have a hard time recognizing. I am working as a set PA on a couple different shows, and enjoying every minute of it. What have I learned? The question is, what haven't I learned. Each day is a new adventure and a learning experience. I have finally mastered the walkie, and now know it is not okay to say more than 5 words on channel 1. I know how to change a battery in under 5 seconds, and can fly sides like its no ones business. I am always alert and am constantly paying attention to everything that is going on around me. I also learned that when someone does something nice for you, you don't fight them on it. You say thank you, move on, and return the favor some day.. Lets just say I will be returning a lot of favors in the future.

Although people are on a much faster pace down here, I am finding myself slowly but surely beginning to keep up, and it feels good. I have so much to be grateful for and am so fortunate to be where I am right now. I don't take one minute of it for granted. I try and venture to a different area of LA every weekend and am continuing to take as many pictures as I can. So far my favorite place is a small bookstore I found called Sam French Theater, every book in the store has to do with film. Can you believe it? And another store I really like is called Little Buddha, it just opened on Melrose and I have to be careful when I wonder in not to spend my whole paycheck at once.

I miss my friends and family but their support is almost tangible. I love them very much and being away has not been easy.. Kevin is here and he is wonderful, I don't know what I would do without him at this point, and I am not looking to find out anytime soon.

Lets just say life is good, no life is great. I will try and write more often, I want to keep track of everything I am doing and learning... Stay posted.

Peace&Love.

Hellllo Hollywood :)

Currently reading: Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas
Listening to: If It's Love- Train

The past 2 months of my life have led me to a couple of realizations. First, for a lack of better words, I am domestically challenged. Second, I know above anything else right now I want to make movies, or tv, or anything for that matter. So- I left. I left everyone and everything behind to start my life in LA... and well, so far so good.

I start work on the set of Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior tomorrow and I can't decided if I am more nervous or excited. Whatever it is, it is good, really really good. Everything has been falling into place for me, and I am thanking my lucky stars. It seems as if I was almost fighting fate by trying to stay in northern california. I am proud of myself for making this decision- no regrets, ever ever ever.

I am so grateful for all the support from my friends and family, there is no way I could have done any of this on my own. But now that I am here, it is up to me to prove myself and be the best PA anyone has ever seen.. well at least try to be. I am confident in myself and I know this is where I belong right now. Life is good- and I am not taking a single minute of it for granted. I also recently decided that I want to remember each and every day, and because that is virtually impossible I am going to document it. I am going to take a picture every single day, starting 3 days ago (August 20). So wish me luck on that one!






PEACE AND LOVE

Change is good- my recent transition from college to the real world.

Currently Reading: Wuthering Heights & The Indigo Children

Listening to: Eminem- Love the way you lie

After 4 sweet years at Sonoma State, I graduated in May with a BA in Communications. I really believe I made the most of my time at SSU and will take everything I learned with me when I tackle the real world. What did I learn? Well.. I learned how to be a good friend, thanks especially to my roommate of the last two years miss Erin Andrade. If it wasn't for this girl, I wouldn't know how to cook, clean, do my own laundry, or be the person I am today. She is my number one fan and my number one critic. Most of my college memories include her; from laughing, to crying, to punching the shit out of each other with boxing gloves after too many margaritas at Mary's- she was right there with me. My friends had the biggest impact on me during my time at SSU- more than my teachers, classes, and even my parents. If it wasn't for the Kappas, I would still be self centered- and really boring. They taught me the world doesn't revolve around me- and to be a better listener. Amy Twomey was there from day one. She has seen it all- and still loves me anyways. She how to make the best jello shots- and a lot about forgiveness. These girls will stay with me no matter where I go from here.

As far as the actual reason why I went to Sonoma State (to get a good education), I learned a lot. I learned a lot about myself, the world, and I learned what I want to do with my life. I was so fortunate to have amazing teachers that took their time to get to know me and challenge me every step of the way. I have a better understanding of the world, and a better grip on life than I did 4 years ago. Since graduating, some friends and I have created our own production company, Postlife Productions. I am excited and proud and can't wait to see what the future holds for us- us being me, Kev and April. They are my partners in work and in life. I don't make any decision without consulting them first, and despite our differences- we work well together and I consider them two of the most talented people I know.

My life now is very different from my life one month ago. I made the decision to rent a house with my boyfriend in El Cerrito- about 45 minutes from Sonoma. My days have been filled with cooking, cleaning, long walks, and exploring my new surroundings. I read too much and miss my friends. Life is good but different. I do freelance for an animal rescue organization in Emeryville and am fostering two kitties- Eleanor Rigsby and Jude. It has definitely helped keep me busy- but I am ready for them to go to nice homes- Char will miss them though- she thinks she's their mom. As far as life with the boyfriend, the usual roommate stuff- to be expected. We end each day on a good note- and never go to sleep angry. It's just not healthy. We are taking it day by day- and so far so good. You have to pick your battles. Life is too short.

Right now I am working on Postlife, and crossing my fingers about my job interview with KTVU on Thursday. I had the opportunity to intern there this past semester, and it was by far the best decision I have made in my life. I absolutely fell in love with with people- and was able to put my skills and creativity to use. I would be proud to represent KTVU. would be a great stepping stone on my way to becoming a producer and I couldn't imagine a better place for me right now. Keep your fingers crossed, think positive, and wish me luck!
Peace and Love.